Urg… past these few nights I’ve been dreaming of me being lovey dovey with other people I don’t know or made up in my head. I haven’t had any lovey dovey dreams of my husband and it kind of bothers me. We do talk when we can but he never really shows that he desires me I always feel like I have to ask him to desire me or tell him to. It’s kind of boring… I mean don’t get me wrong I love him but I haven’t had any affection in like 4 months not even verbal affection I mean he tells me he loves me and misses me sometimes but there is never “I desire you” :/ I’m even catching myself looking for attention or compliments from other people… I hate that feeling. Josh said I think too much and I need to get out of the house and I have like every single day I haven’t even had a game or anime day only maybe couple hours. Well I am excited I get to see him next month  ^_^ I do miss him very much.